Thanks a lot to everyone who give words of support. Thanks a lot. =)

Went back to my secondary school today. A teacher told me that we can become relief teachers during the holidays. I have already applied for it and still waiting for the results of my application. To my surprise, the pay for relief teacher is so high.

Wage Rates for Relief Teachers(Classroom)
Daily-rated ($)
$65.00 to $200.00
Hourly-rated ($)
$11.00 to $36.00

It is so high. So incredible.

Was scolded today for keeping the rings that once belongs to the 2 of us. Took out the rings today and found that ants had built a nest in the jewellery box. Was very shocked and screamed for help from my mum. She came to the rescue but when she saw what is in the box, she said this to my dad: "Don't know why she still want to keep the ring that he give. People would have long threw it away."

I was very quiet when I heard that. Its true that I cannot let go of everything that he gave me. The flowers and wrapper is still in my room, displayed in a glass bottle, the rings that he gave me, the neoprints we took together, the gifts that he had given me and the memories that we shared.

Guess I am just stupid and stubborn. The breakup has caused a part of my life to be gone and I changed totally. I know myself. I began being very conscious about my appearance cos he always complain about my pimply face. I never really bother to take care of them cos I thought loving someone is loving his or her everything. So now I am trying to cure the problems. I also began to spend money like water, spending them away without a second thought. That is so much like him. I am slacking because when I do my tutorial, it reminds me of being at his house doing tutorials with him.

These memories were probably not worth a single cent to him but to me they are priceless. I am still waiting, waiting for him to return to my side although I know very well that that is never going to happen. He will never go back to someone whom he broke up with. I am just another broken hearted girl.

='( Sob sob. Haha guess I spend too much time in front of the computer resulting in having sore eyes. =P Hehe.

Exam is just round the corner. 5 sep is the beginning of the exam period and I am in deep shit. I have yet to begin my revision except for writing my notes for Business Finance today. I think I am pretty slack this semester. I am slacking like nobody's business. Do my tutorial on the eleventh hour, studying for the exam at the very last minute. My mind is somewhere else. Got to really buck up as my grades are falling. =( Got to go back to my books. Bye.

Not sure if the chinese lyrics will appear. If it did not, please change the encoding. This are some songs that I want to recommend from 5566 3rd album. Firstly is of course the first hit song, 'Long Time No See'.

It is a very joyful song of a group of big boys who recall a girl whom they always discussed about in the past, wondering how is she doing and praising her of her looks and voice. The MTV comes along with hand sign language to benefit the less fortunate people.

好久不见
Hu hu ah I ah I
你的样子越来越美越来越可爱
走到哪里都会有人偷偷望着你
你的歌声越唱越美越唱越动人
唱到哪里都会有人偷偷流着泪
好久不见的你是否别来无恙
是否心里有时还在偷偷想着他
年复一年岁月无声改变了我们
得到什么失去什么又有谁知道
好久没到这个地方来唉咿
这里的人每个每个变了样
是否记得当初我为你们唱的歌
是否记得一路花儿为我们盛开
好久没到这个地方来唉咿
这里的人每个每个变了样
是否记得当初我们讨论的女孩
是否她已越来越美越来越可爱

A song that I love a lot for its style and lyrics. Probably their English is horrible but just look at the way they expressed. It is so simple and sad. The song gave me a national day feeling. Haha. Very dramatic song with a very strong rhythm and background music. It is about a guy who does his crying in the rain, hiding all his sorrow and pain from the girl whom he love yet been hurting him all along. A very sweet love song. It can also represent a parent's love to his or her child.

Crying In The Rain
I'll never let you see
The way my broken heart is hurting me
I've got my pride
And I know how to hide all my sorrow and pain
I'll do my crying in the rain
If I wait for stormy skies
You won't know the rain from the tears in my eyes
You'll never know that I still love you so
Though the heartaches remain
I'll do my crying in the rain
Raindrops falling from heaven
Could never take away my misery
But since we're not together I'll wait for stormy weather to hide these tears
I hope you'll never see
Someday when my crying's done
I'm gonna wear a smile and walk in the sun
I may be a fool
But till then, darling
You'll never see the complain
I'll do my crying in the rain
I'll do my crying in the rain

The next song is the first song from the 3rd album that I heard of. The starting sounds like Italian opera but the remaining melody is great. The song is about this guy who is hoping for a girl to return to him. He asked her how deep does she wants to hurt him, what should he do to make her understand and what should he do to make her come back to him. It is very sad and is a very nice dual by the 2 lead singers, Tony and Zax. To add on, Ashley Ingra, the producer of Marie Carey's album, is one of the key personnel for this song.

回到我身边
忘了已经等了几年
忘了已经哭过几遍
不敢走远 怕错过你回来
抱着一颗被风撕裂的心吶喊
你是否有听见
是否有听见
怎样伤我你才甘愿
怎样做你才会了解
怎样做你才肯回到我身边
可不可以不要争辩
我们到底谁错谁对
求你快点回我身边
No No No No
求你快回我身边
不要让我如此狼狈
不要让我继续 so sad
只求求你
让我们再见一面
怎么茫茫迷雾覆盖这思念
你是否有看见
是否有看见
没竟还要伤我几遍
没竟怎样你才甘愿
没竟如何才肯回到我身边
海浪声声敲着心碎
孤单的我最最可怜
我爱的你怎么不见
最后一次为你掉泪
不要让我继续流泪
少了幸福只剩眼泪

The melody of this song is very catchy but yet to have the time to find out the meaning of the song yet. But it is a pretty neutral song and light-hearted.

白色花漾
花丛里的白杜鹃想起你的笑颜
雨水将花瓣融化我思念
故事因为有你的出现而改变
房间里的旧照片映着我的爱恋
雾气把窗口凝结你不见
季节因为有我的思念而转变
你看不见 雨落下 花绽放
彷佛记忆也在随风释放
熟悉的 草地上
弥漫你的芳香
雨落下 花绽放 就让所有回忆瞬间蒸发
时间停在白色花漾
雨落下 花绽放 彷佛记忆也在随风释放
你是我的太阳
给我温暖的力量
雨落下 花绽放 回忆从此有你
特别闪亮 时间停在白色花漾

This song is a happy song. Also yet to find out the meaning. No time. =P

追赶跑跳碰
Ladies And Gentlemen Let's Welcome The Best And The Only 5566
自从我遇见了你 就觉得自己如此幸运
明明是个梅雨季 却天天都放晴 多么的不可思议
我们向牛郎和织女星 虽然隔着遥远两地 却如此如此珍惜
追赶跑跳我们碰在一起 不到终点永远不能放弃
Are You Ready It's Your Turn Baby One More Time
爱的路上我和你 整天都是好心情(有你就有好心情)
Shake Your Shake Your Body 最有元气
爱的路上我和你 我们一起玩游戏
跑跳碰出新完一 最美就是生命
当我们同在一起(限时把爱送给你)你是最美的旋律
虽然只单单的三个音 也要用力说爱你
就像是Do Re Mi爱需要多点耐力 才能够天天都笑嘻嘻
哪怕突然起了乌云 却还是亮晶晶

This song is another of my favourite. Imagine yourself as a sparrow whom no one believes in yet hoping to visit the best scenery. Imagine the one you like as the best scenery in the world. To you, the little sparrow, he or she is the best whereby no one can substitute. The melody and song is very nice and catching. =)

世界最美的风景
我心中的天气一直不放晴
我眼部的眉心一直不开启
卡片的风景多么美丽
谁愿意
陪着我
环游世界去
我是只小麻雀却从来不犹豫
有一天变美丽没有人会相信 向窗外飞去
却从来不担心
谁愿意 陪着我 环游世界去
你是世界上
最美的风景
多少情雨风雪冰
都是我的Memory
你是世界上
最美的风景
四处留下我的足迹
想着你
我是颗小太阳守在你心底
冷的时候请你快躲到我怀里
我们有约定
我从来没忘记
我愿意
带着你
环游世界去
你是只小麻雀从来不犹豫
有一天变美丽只有我会相信
像窗外飞去 却从来不担心
我愿意 带着你 环游世界去
你是世界上
最美的风景
多少情雨风雪冰
都是我的Memory
你是世界上
最美的风景
四处留下我的足迹
想着你 你是世界上最美的风景
多么幸运你让我 拥有你

The direct translation of the title is 'Sleep, Baby'. To me, this song is a very sweet and gentle song. Suitable to be sang or played to babies before sleeping. Though the lyrics is very obvious that it is for a baby, I felt that the song is also suitable for your beloved partner. Taking your partner as the baby whom you give lots of care and love to. The heart aching part is when the song gets to the chrous whereby the song sang that 'you have the eyes of an angel but tears of crystal fell from your eyes'.

宝贝快睡
宝贝快睡 明天再见 别张开眼
虎姑婆会来身边
宝贝快睡 我们明天再见
当争开眼 世界会变的新鲜(世界是那么新鲜)
你是我今生的一切 而我会爱你 道永远
你有着天使的双眼 却掉下水晶般的泪
是谁让你害怕难过伤悲
而无法入睡 你忘了天使的笑脸
还有我许过的心愿
我会陪你穿过风雨黑夜
去寻找晴天
My Love 宝贝快睡
我们明天再见

My recommendations to some songs from 5566 3rd album. Hope your all will like it and of course, if you like it a lot, please do support their album. =)

Quite a bit of happening lately. On the 19th Aug, The Business school had its very own investiture where by the main committee of each Interest group is presented with appointment letters. The main committee with some Year 2 A&F peeps went drinking after that and I am glad I did not go because I fell asleep the moment I reached home.

Had several mini discussions with individual main committee regarding the last few events that the IG will be conducting. =) Decided to combine 1 of the project with another club in school. But I wouldn't say it too early because none is confirmed yet.

Had a complimentary pizza from Pizza Hut just now. Hehe. A tele-surveyer called my house looking for me and asked me to help them with a survey. Being the typical nice me... *ahem ahem* =P I did the survey for the lady and after the survey, I was told that a complimentary pizza is given to me as a little gift from Pizza Hut. Yum yum. Haha. So I got the pizza and started chewing on it. It is superb. Haha. Yummy. =)

Is it more fortunate to be loved or to love? I have this question in my mind today after having a hearty chat with Kes and Guiqi today. What is love? Unconditional sacrifice for your partner? Do you prefer to be love or to love?

I used to think that loving another person is blissful but now, I realized it isn’t true. Being loved is more blissful. Loving one is painful. All 3 of us have a point in common. We were all hurt in relationship. We clink to our past relationship as though they were the preciouses pearl from the ocean.

I said this during our chat: “You can never put down your love for another, even when you no longer think about him or her, the moment you saw him or her, the memories will flow back to your mind. You have chosen to hide this piece of memory deep in the bottom of your heart, locked with heavy chain.”

If you were to ask me where is this memory, my answer is I have no idea. Having been hurt badly and used as a shield to protect himself when he request for a breakup, I felt like a pearl that had turned into a stone and threw to the ground. I felt very terrible after the breakup with tears and nightmares for months.

I am someone who is very emotional. Even a little hamster that I spend 1 month with, I can cry buckets for days just because she ran away. I feared that she had no food to eat, no place to be, eaten by cats, fall into a hole and so many others. Not to mention a 8-9 months relationship with someone I truly loved.
So, what is love? Is being loved or to love more fortunate?

I didn't go back to Bega cos my CMA lecture notes is with Michelle and if I don't do it on Monday night, I am bound to be clueless about tutorial on Tuesday. So I didn't go to work and Tuesday, I felt so tired and decided not to go and of cos, not going for 2 days is so terrible already. So, my conclusion is, I am not going to work.

Today I can go home early. Horray. Only got to attend a lecture and after that a project meeting to settle the presentation stuffs on Thursday and off I go. =) Thursday, I am going back to my secondary school! Not to visit the teachers but to eat. Haha I miss all the food there. Egg noodle, sliced fish noddle, wantan noodle and so many others. I am going back with Vanessa, anyone want to join us? 11-1.30pm. =) Friday I will be attending the 05/06 Investiture with the main comm and the Year 1s. =) I think my blog is getting boring... haha.... Tata.

I AM TIRED!!! I was so tired from yesterday till today. I practically ran everywhere around the whole 2 basketball and 2 netball courts. It was terrible but I simply love it.

Yesterday was the cohort’s sports day where street soccer and captains ball were played. It was so all right for the captains ball from the beginning until a tie happened between 2 groups. I think I was out of my mind when it happens. I did not realize that it was a tie. I just shouted: “Orange 2, Purple 2.” Then it was Wei Ting who discovered it and a lot of stuffs happened cause 1 of the group refuses to compromise and all they wanted is to win.

I was so angry with them. I was seriously tired. I wanted to shout back at the girl who tried to complain about a rule that had been made clear to them from the beginning. What’s the problem with her? Can’t she understand simple English. I really wonder how bad is her English. Even though there are hiccups here and there, things ended rather smoothly. Even though the group that I don’t like won the tie match, Delong’s group trashed them. I was laughing out loud in my heart and trust me they(the group that I don’t like) play dirty.

After that, everything ended rather smoothly. Special thanks to those who helped to pack the logistics stuffs even when you need not do that especially Ryan who volunteered. =)

After the whole thing, I went home and had my dinner close to 12 midnight. Haha. The main comm., actually had a internal meeting between us after everything ended. We had our meeting till the uncle tries to drive us out by switching off all the lights, leaving us in darkness. Haha. So we went home at about 9.20pm.

Guess what I did went I reach home? I played on my computer. Haha. Lazy. =P I prepared for the meeting the next day and searched for stuffs. Terrible. =P

So today, I woke up with a very sleepy look on me and went for the meeting. After which, we went for lunch. Hehe. Cristy, Michelle, Samuel, Jason and the Year 1s. We talked rubbish and chatted non-stop. When it is time to go, everyone left except Michelle and me. WE went walking around, window-shopping. Haha. We are both very budget. After lunch, I only had $0.50 left and Michelle with $1+. Haha. So we walked into ‘Ice Lemon Tea’ and went to the section where they sell mood rings. It was so fun shopping cos we realized that both of us had about the same taste and I we spent hours inside the shop, putting rings on our fingers.

Finally we each managed to get a ring that we wanted and they were of the same design. Haha. I gave her the mood ring as her birthday present cos it is coming soon.

I guess I better stop, if not I will be writing a compo. Haha. Bye.

Bega called me just now. Hehe. I am going back to work on Monday to Thursday. Hehe. Earning some extra cash to top up my bank account. =)

Its national day and I forget to wish this beautiful nation a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Singapore is the best country in my eyes. It is beautiful and safe. I feel so fortunate to be born in Singapore than in other countries. =) Actually Switzerland is also not bad and Taiwan too. Haha. I should be here to wish Singapore a happy birthday but I ended up talking about other countries too. Haha. =P

Li Min, I am broke already. Need some cash inflow. Haha. You become my 'sugar mummy' then I don't need to go out to work. =P Hehe. Really hard on cash now.

A little about my house. I might be moving cos my parents wanted to give me a room of my own. Currently, I am still sleeping with them cos my house is so packed. My grandparents, 1 of my uncles, my parents, my 2 brothers and me staying in a 4 room flat. Bad huh? So my dad is considering to get a 5 room flat to fit all of us. Hehe. If I really move, I will invite you guys to my new house for house warming. Hehe. Will try to get everyone on my list. Hehe. =P

As I might be moving, I need to start saving to decorate my room too. Hehe. I already thought of the theme. It will be based on Dolphins and nature. I hope to have my ceiling painted like clouds in the sky and the walls to be in sky blue colour. Then other than my bed, I want a little display shelf for my display oranments that was given to me during my birthdays. Hehe. Then I wanted 1 corner for soft stuffs. =D Although I am allergic to it, I can't help but wanted them in my room. =P I want a little bedside table to put my alarm clock and table lamp and wardrobe, book shelf and study table. So many things. Haha. =P Greedy me.

Now the spotlight is on HAM HAM!!! Ham Ham is so lazy, greedy and cute lately. She wouldn't come out unless you give her food and after she finished eating, she will go straight home. Haha. So lazy. Then today we open her cage the whole day. She came out and ran right into mine and my parents' room twice. Haha. I have to transport her from the room to the living room.

Then the next time she went into my grandparents' room. She ran right into a hole behind the wardrobe. God, I was sweating already but luckily my uncle asked me to bring her food to the hole and there she is, out of the hole. Haha. She is so greedy. =P

Another thing, the tanks were supposed to pass by my house and when the tanks came, we all went to look at it without caring about Ham Ham. Guess what? Before the tanks left, I went back to my tutorials and I saw a white thing running. Haha. Its Ham Ham. She heard sounds and came out of her house and ran to the windows but she cannot see anything. Haha. She ran back to her house shortly after the tanks left. She is so curious. Haha. =P

Next is tears from my eyes. I cried again about relationship today. I asked for a patched up but was rejected. I don't know why but I told him, I will wait till he is ready. Actually I know in the end the same thing will happen but I don't want to do anything that I will regret again. I have enough of regrets and guilts...

I am doing a lot of online shopping again. ='( Bad. I am using all my savings again. New item bought:

1 lip gloss
1 handbag
A group of accessories-making materials
5*masks (going to sell it away)

Oh god. It is killing my savings. I got to kick this bad habit and concentrate on my upcoming exams.

I want to work during the holidays. Any jobs to introduce?

I am sick. =( I could not swallow properly and everytime I drink water, i will feel a sharp pain at my throat or chest. I feel so terrible that I could not sleep at night. See how bad is it?

I was told that it was because of a medication that I eat and it attacked my gut and bloated it. So terrible. ='( So I only went for CMA today and skipped my POE tutorial. And you know what? I am only allowed to eat soft food. Meaning only porridge or noodles. How tasty can it be? It is such a torture. T.T

Haiz. This is the 2nd time already. I kept thinking that my Tuesday lesson starts at 9am when the truth is it starts at 10am. So I estimated my timing: 2 hours of Legal tutorial so break time is 11pm then 1 hour break meaning CMA tutorial starts at 12noon. Then 2 hours of tutorial meaning legal lecture starts at 2pm and ends at 4pm. ... -.-"

Blur me. So I came at 9am for my legal tutorial once then today I came at 12noon for CMA tutorial. I am so blur and it is always Liyana that let me know that I mixed up my timetable all again. =( Sad sad.

I could have stayed home and play with Ham Ham a little more. This cute little bum had been running on the wheel since 9am today so I let her out at about 10am. She ate her breakfast and ran about the house. Saw her cute little bum moving left to right. So cute. =P Then after running for a few rounds, she went home. =)

I heard from my brother that everytime Ham Ham urinate, she will cover her puddle with hay. Hehe. So cute. I am loving her more and more now. Hehe. Ham Ham is the cutest. =P